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October 18th...

Finally its here, the day I was waiting for past 1 year... last year same day someone said yes to me and changed my life, she added colors to my life, a smile on my face and made me realize that this life is worth living and is quite beautiful got the love of my life after a waiting for complete 4 years...

The wait was worth it as the 1 year I spent with her was the best time of my life something I can never forget but a fool can never realize the worth of true love and I think am definitely  the biggest fool...

People tell me that no one can understand women the way you do, you have a women's heart but I proved them wrong... I made her go away made her to leave me I broke up with her 2 days back... 

Yes it was my own doings that made her to leave me... I still don’t know what got into me maybe its all the tension that I am taking about her career which she's not taking seriously or is it something related to my own dreams that I want to fulfill but why can't I fulfill them with her being with me after all she's a really wonderful girl and who understands everything I say... 

Let me tell you I am a very difficult person to stay with, because of all the mood swings in my life... no matter how many of these mood swings lead to fights she was always with me... 

But I guess there's always a limit and she couldn't tolerate more so she said it "I need a break-up" I like someone else... I know the liking line doesn't mean anything she loves me and will always love me and same for me I can never stop loving her but I don’t know why I just cant get back with her maybe because she tried to make me jealous by saying that she likes someone else... I know this will really hurt her but its better this way at least I won’t hurt her daily if I cont. to stay with her...  

But I still can't figure out why am acting like such a jerk, like an asshole... why is her career so imp for me maybe because its imp for my family... but its me who love her and its me who has to live with her... and I really wanted to give all the possible support but I guess my opinion was of no value to her and maybe this is the reason I am so irritated about... 

All I know is I really love her a lot and am really serious about her but considering the present situation and the state of my mind I guess this I the best choice for both of us, I think this is the time to work on our career, a time to make our stand in this world and if we can't do it together we should let go of each other... but this doesn't mean that I’ll go and fall in love with someone else.... NO I’ll not... I’ll always love her...

All I want right now is to see her successful, with a great job and a great life... I know she wants to come back and its really very idiotic of me to say no but I guess this is the best for both of us because if I cont. today I know every single day that she'll spend with me she'll get hurt and I really don’t wanna do that.  

I am really sorry for not being there with you on our 1st anniversary and your birthday.
I don’t think I have the right to say this but I LOVE YOU!!!

C’mon guys send in all your beautiful words for me as comments I promise I won't disapprove any of them... 

UPDATE:- Thanks my dear bro thanks for talking to me last night it helped me to figure out stuff and to find out the real problems...
and thanks swthrt for being so understanding.. 
Things are quite ok now as we have found a way to go through all this..
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  1. nehOctober 20, 2008 at 12:35 AM

    thanx agg...fr talking to him...finally gt him bck luv u vaibhav n m really sorry fr hurting you...n hurting you was like hurting myself more badly...n u also knowingly did everythng...dt was really ...dnt knw wat to say..my bday n our anivrsry day turned out to b my worst day of my life...but vaibhav after reading ur chat vd agg...i understud ur situation n may b dtz y u reacted like this...but plzz dnt ever do like this...again it hurts like hell...but hey m nt dt weak ...if u also ask me to go away frm ur life...il nt i promise heehee but if reason vl b dt u dnt luv me or u like sm1else dn il let you go...n u also dnt ever give up so easily..n watever happens if u luv me dnt ever ask ur luv to go...

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  2. aggarwalOctober 20, 2008 at 8:38 AM

    hey guys...
    m very happy for both of u (idiots).. :0 ..
    kabhi bhi ladne kaa mauka mat chhodna.. and that too on d most important day of ur life.. i had to wish both of u but i cudn't chalo ab happy anniversary to both of u and do celebrate this day when he comes back home.. happy anniversary to both of u and wish u a grt life ahead..

    hope we all ll meet soon.. lookin frwrd fr this day..

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  3. nehOctober 20, 2008 at 4:53 PM

    looking frwrd to meet u both...n thanx fr ur gd wishes..

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  4. radhikaOctober 22, 2008 at 1:37 AM

    bhaiya...read ur blog...ur DUMB!!!!!!!!paagal jaise kaam karo fir bullshit likho .........mote dnt do that again ok...n belated happy bday "bhabhi!"

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  5. moushmiOctober 27, 2008 at 6:16 PM

    somehow ppl heere have completely forgotten me...
    bhaad mei jao sab.,..........

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