Am Sooo LONELY

DISCLAIMER:-the following lines doesnt refer to any person its just a genral representation of my mind...

these days ppl ask me:-- vaibhav whats wrong yaar tum bahut tense n disturbed lagte ho...n infact i am feeling very low these days but why??? even i dont know why i am feeling so low n sad...haan itna jaroor lagta hai that i am lonely...n like no one is there with me...
then ppl say that u hv so many good frens...
but i dont know aisa lagta hai jaise dost hote huye bhi nahin hain...kaun dost hai kaun nahin yeh pata karna bahut mushkil hai...especially here in JUIT kaun kub badal jaye u never know...
i know even i hv some faults..well everyone have  n so do i,,no one is made perfect but i just know one thing that agar mein kisi se dosti karta hun to seriouslly karta hun n hamesha saath deta hun koi self intrest ke liye kabhi kisi se dosti nahin karta... its always rt. frm my hrt...
but it seems that i'll have to change myself...
coz this world is not going to change the meening of the term friendship has changed but not for me...
i still take my frens as my life..
its not that all this applies to everyone,there r so many ppl in my life who are really good n are true frens..but still coz of some ppl i'll have to say "kaun kub badal jaye u never know..."

another issue:-- what do u think is fighting a solution of every problem...well i dont think so acc. to me its a temp. soln to a permanent prob..n ios it really very necessary to fight back,to kick back the person who kicks you...
can't a person who believes in love n frenship n who hates violence,who doesnt even like watching violent or action movies has the right to survive in this world...
well my answer is if u get satisfaction by fighting with me come n fight i promise mein haath bhi nahin uthaunga.... atleast its better than fighting back...which in turn gives rise to another fight n another...
well all i want to say to all the ppl whom i hv refered above is:--"plz leave me alone in my lonely world" its better to stay alone than to live with those ppl who dont know the meaning of frenship,,jo tubtak aapke dost hain jubtak unka koi matlab hai aapse after that u dont have any value...

pata nahin mein sahi hun ya galat but i just know one thing....
am soooo lonelyyyyy....
n i just remember this song in my present state of mind

Lonely
by Akon
Album : Trouble (2004)
>Lonely I'm Mr Lonely,
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely, I'm Mr. Lonely
I have nobody,
For my owwnnn
I'm so lonely,..........

am very thankfull to all my true frens for being there with me at all times....
n all i hope is that u all stay in touch with me always...

In Rahoon Main Tanha Si Ho Kar Aankhain Kitna Rooti Hain....

UNTITLED

another gr8 article by my fren Nitin Tiwari but this article is not complete yet.....
but whatever he has written till now is worth reading..so plz do read it....
n nitin wishing u all the best....n complete it as soon as possible we r waiting waiting for it......

What does love give to you when you give everything for the love? The moment this question comes to your mind, I think love abandons you because love is special like a very small yet infinitely bright, flickering light which extinguishes with the slightest disturbance in the air.

So, hold your breath because you are in love. A journey which contains thousands of moments which will turn eternal in time. Her eyes, smile, twist in face, falling of hair etc things you never noticed until now. Ever given a thought what those eyes tell to you?
When you two were talking of simple things that day and suddenly something came over you and you grabbed her hand and she turned her head towards you as if shocked and met your gaze. You know these are the same eyes you have been looking since days yet there is something different. You don't look away, neither does she as if a question of ego has slipped in but the game is different and so is the enemy. It seems here in this game it doesn't matter you win or loose but you wish for this game go in eternity. You look into those eyes and wish they could speak or you could summarise what they are whispering in your ear as if they are telling thousand stories. You still don't look away and you notice she is getting uncomfortable. She clutches her hand, twists her body and tries to look away and turns her head little bit and then as if your gaze has hypnotized her , fails to turn away. She then wants to say something and there you see two sweat drops, one on the red cheek and one on the lips. Nervous she is- you think and before she could finish the stammer in the very first word she wants to speak, you put your finger on her mouth. When you became sure that she has got your direction you remove your finger off her lips but making sure that the sweat drop is removed by the little brush of your finger and her lips. While your finger was slowly moving away you felt a breath of warm air and your fingers tremble or was it her other hand which was in your palm since the very beginning.

LOVE- A PERFORMANCE ENHANCEMENT DRUG

By:-  NITIN TEWARI{a fren of mine}
Source:-http://himtimes.com/

¡®Falling¡¯, a word which often brings a wave of negative conclusions on hearing it. A deductive study, which reigns over the brains of almost all the homo-sapiens, would relate it to an array of conclusions like breaking, accident, dangerous sports, vertigo etc.
¡®Love¡¯, a human emotion which has for centuries mesmerized the already complex comprehension power of human beings. A simple four letter word, which is so entangled that when analyzed is found to force great writers to give special functions to a vital organ- heart. Though a serious physician would totally deny the involvement of heart in any major activity besides pumping blood but you still say to others that, ¡±see through your heart¡± or ¡°let your heart guide you¡±. While former is strictly a function of an eye, latter one owes it¡¯s debt to brain. Love is not just a simple emotion instead a state where even the smile of someone can bring butterflies in your stomach. It was love that forced the great Columbus to continue on his journey even when he was in dire straits - the love for adventure. A feeling which, is related with purity, elixir and positiveness unlike falling which is negative in nature.
So, the question arises that why do we fall in love? For centuries the answer to this question has remained incommunicado to it¡¯s seekers and will continue to do so probably even when the intelligence of humans will reach it¡¯s zenith. But an optimist never loses his hope perhaps he is also been hit by a cupid¡¯s arrow to find the ¡®Holy Grail¡¯- love.
Strange thing about love is that it is not just a mutual give-n-take emotion between humans. The omnipresence of love was so easily felt by people that one should not wonder that how it got its association with God. The spectrum of the different objects of love in the eyes of human beings is of infinite magnitude and therefore the association with God became necessary.
An environmentalist may only love green hills while you find your love interest in your girlfriend alone and to make things more confusing your idiot friend thinks that his new car is his new love! The after affects of love could range from loving a thing, as small as a superficial anger on you beloved¡¯s face when every time the wind blows a lock of her hair in front of her eyes, to the fanatic expedition experts who love to scale down the big Mt. Everest., on every opportunity they get.
Life, a roller-coaster ride for men to experience different kind of feelings and emotions in every millionth part of the second they continue to live. You might be feeling sad because you didn¡¯t score well in exams but may be your cousin brother is partying on the beaches of Havana and feeling merry at the same moment. Every man living in his own pattern of feelings and no two patterns are same, however, all comprise of same constituents viz. happiness, sadness, melancholy, love etc. It¡¯s like the digits of the number ¡®PI¡¯( ¡Ç ) and every human living somewhere within it and no two patterns are same though the numbers used are from 0-9 only.
So how does love, a just another feeling, becomes a performance enhancement drug? If every human lives through a same set of innumerable emotions although they may pass it in a unique manner then why do people are still happy and contended when they have a serious argument with their love? Or why did Manoj Pandey, a Kargil war hero, didn¡¯t turn his back when he found out that his force was outnumbered by the enemy? Although a lover going through a rough patch would out rightly reject the idea of his mind feeling satisfaction or high but then it would make the popularity of romantic sad songs a hoax and the heroic efforts of Manoj Pandey, a myth.
The stark difference between a pain caused by burn and the pain caused in love is as conspicuous as the blue sky and obviously the latter is much better to happen as it has an ineffable sweetness of being sad, a loner and so many shades of the melancholic life to which you will detest if you are not in love.
We observe here that love-an emotion or a feeling when amalgamated with a passing emotion paves a smoother path to survive through the latter. Manoj Pandey, like any other mortal being must have felt chills through his spine on getting into the enemy bunkers but we forget that there was another feeling that was assisting him and that was love for his nation.
If you do not love computer programming and doing it, then inevitably you will end up being a bored and sad person. A friend who is girl is a good option but a girl friend is anytime better and same goes with choosing a job of your choice or love instead of a job that could fetch you fortunes. Once love is infused in your life, living all other emotions or simply life, becomes a treat. All you will be able to recall is her face, smiles, phone calls and kisses in the former case while a satisfactory innovative job life in the latter.
Tendulkar hitting 67 centuries and Einstien discovering that E=mc2 were no flukes. They all had an instilled passion and love for their respective fields so even when their life was low they smoothly passed it because of this ¡®performance enhancement drug¡¯- love.
The truth is that miracles do happen very often. All you need is an eye to see them. A man getting invisible on his discretion is not a miracle. It is simply a magic. A single mother of two, coming late to home from work and still finding time to play with her kids is a miracle and none other than ¡®love¡¯ has the capability in this cold universe to make it into a reality.
Fall in love, not just with the opposite sex but anything that you presume to be your life because no matter how deep you will fall but you will walk through all the other emotions or situations in your life like walking on a strawberry cake. So next time when you propose to her and say that,¡± you are my power, my pleasure, my pain¡±, pray to God that she agrees because life devoid of love is like falling into a hell.

Singapore Trip

hey ppl writting a blog after a long time rt...

well actually nothing much happened but the best part is i went on a holiday to singapore n that too alone....what say.......

n if any of u wanna see some of the selected pics of my trip u r most welcome just visit my
photo gallery

so just tc n keep--smilinggg