Sunday, September 15, 2019

The Pain of Happiness




Weird title, right? How can Happiness be a pain…

I am writing something after a long long time, there was a time back in college days to years immediately after that when there was so much to write, there was so much to talk, there was so much to feel.

Then we got busy with our jobs and then marriage and a Settled life…

Marrying your best friend and your life has its perk that somehow you attain Nirvana – A different sort of Nirvana perhaps.

One where life is too comfortable, you are never alone, and you have a basic lack of any pain in your life…

Now even Nirvana has a problem, the lack of pain gives you a writer’s block…

Not just that. When collectively everyone around you and all your close friends attain this stage, you reach a point when you start missing your friends. Not that they have gone anywhere but the things you used to talk changes, the emotions and feelings you used to share changes and things like jobs, etc. take center stage.

This is what I call the pain of happiness!!

Induced pain is what’s making me write this, this is not real.

There was pain that we always carried around, There were songs that we enjoyed because of that pain which had to go when we had someone in our life as a partner who is so understanding that you don’t even need words to tell them how you feel, someone you don’t feel the need to hide anything from and someone who not only knows and is cool when you are checking out someone else but at times even poke you to checkout someone!

The reality was those heart to hearts, talking about our crushes and one-sided loves. The feeling of liking someone and helping friends to write just the right words to send to there crushes.
No matter what but talking and sharing feelings is what defined the strength of friendship.

We are all settled now, Happy now… We still meet and talk about jobs, we talk about money, politics and so many things even maids…
But those intense talks, those deep emotions have lost, our pain is different now it’s mostly professional and no longer emotional…

There’s nothing wrong with it, after all, we have grown up, we have matured we have settled...

But I have a Void now…  
इस सुकून की ज़िन्दगी में दर्द ढूंढ़ता हूँ में...  
जिसे  शब्दों में पिरोह सकूँ वो आंसू  ढूंढ़ता हूँ में,
दो पल दिल की बात कर सकूँ वो एहसास ढूंढ़ता हूँ में, 
फिर जिससे जज़्बात बाँट सकूँ वो दोस्त ढूंढ़ता हूँ में, 
 इस सुकून की ज़िन्दगी में दर्द ढूंढ़ता हूँ में...

Thursday, September 28, 2017

There I said it...

I am no blind follower aka Bhakt as some pseudo intellects call them but i don't mind if they call me one!

Trend chal gya hai bus gaali dene ka, pehle sarkar kuch karti nhin thi to gaali ab kuch kar rahi hai to gaali.. Bus khud kuch na karna pade aur desh badal jaye yeh sapne dekhne wale log hain yahan pe apni jeb se kuch nikal to jaye, aansun aa jata hai. Yeh nhin dekhenge ki saalon ka galat sahi karne mein waqt khoon paseena sab lagta hai.. Petrol ke baad chappal/Joote ke rate bhi bada do nange paon chalna pade but 100% support the govt in what they are doing!

I have always said that if politicians can deliver only and only 10% of what they commit i would be happy with it coz that would be more than negatives they have been doing and here we have a govt. that's fixing the foundation of this nation be it toilets or tax reforms, cooking gas or 100% electrification.
 They are hitting the enemy hard on border and tax thief's inside equally harder. they are correcting the wrongs in society thats been going on for years and building a better future alongside.

The truth is there's nothing to compare this govt. with we had high hopes from AAP but they went crazy now they have realised that bullshit doesn't work and returning on track but we still can't compare the few goods (education & healthcare) they have done with the central govt as handling a state/city and big diversified country is a difference that i don't need to explain. But if they do things right i fully support them as well.

Yes there are issues with current govt as well, many just created by opposition and some by the stupid people within them. Nobody is perfect even the current govt will make mistakes but all i know is there intent is good and they are working hard!

If a change is required then that's within us, we need to start respecting this country, its resources and our own public property. we'll have to contribute for our own better future!

Somebody rightly said in a video i saw today, if you want to change the world start by making your bed every morning! Coz if you can't do the little things you can never achieve bigger targets!

So shun your negativity and go out do something for the nation; here's an idea to start with, put the trash in dustbin and if you are on road keep it in your car till you find one!

Sunday, May 7, 2017

The Chase

Sitting in my balcony on a bean bag with  purple and green chinese string lights covering the entire balcony like a roof over my head and while humming the song 🎶Mere Mehboob Qayamat hogi aaj ruswa tere darr se inayat hogi 🎶 i browse through my Facebook timeline and this ad from Urban Ladder showing different collection of furniture 🛋️ that in itself gives a particular look and feel to your home made me think about this chase.

The Chase we all are a part of, that wants us to keep running to earn more money💰.
The Chase to acquire all this stuff that we think will bring more comfort to our lives.
And even though you can afford it you think about another chase, the Chase to have a house 🏠 of our own where we'll keep all these modern designer stuff and will chill, enjoy and have a great life after office hours.

The truth is even if you fullfill one chase another one sucks you in. You have a house of your own and slowly you put some of this stuff inside it but then the journey to acquiring something is more pleasurable then actually enjoying it once acquired.

You stay away from your home to earn even more to acquire some more.

Sitting here in this moment for a change the chase is at pause and I am at peace ☮️. All thanks to the great head massage 😇 I just had and to top it off the 2 minute rain ⛈️ that changed the entire scenery around 🖼️.

Well the chase is never ending but thankfully some small l'il things can pause you and those moments give you the comfort that no chase will ever let you.

Only very few people actually realize the message behind these lines and stop before destroying their lives in this chase, unfortunately i don't have the will power to stop just here and while i enjoy this moment i'll have to end this post and get up and go back to the rat race coz neither i have that kind of bank 🏦 balance or the strength to stop.

Wednesday, August 17, 2016

Manmarziyan...




आज एक मुद्दत के बाद खुद के साथ बैठे हैं... 
सुकून के कुछ पलों को पकडे बैठे हैं.. 
तनहा भले ही हैं पर तन्हाई का नामोनिशां नहीं... 
कुछ यूँ माहौल बना कर बैठे हैं.. 
सितारों सी चमकती यह रौशनी, रूहः को छूती ये धुन... 
लबों पे अंगूर का प्याला और दिल में ख्याल तुम्हारा... 
आज एक मुद्दत के बाद खुद के साथ बैठे हैं... 



Aaj ek muddat ke baad khud ke saath baithe hain...
Sukoon ke kuch palon ko pakde baithe hain..
Tanha bhale hi hain par tanhayi ka naamonishan nhin..
Kuch yuh mahaul bna kar baithe hain..
Sitaron si chamkati yeh roshni, ruhh ko chooti huyi yeh dhun...
Laboon pe angooron ka payala aur dil mein khayal tumhara... 
Aaj ek muddat ke baad khud ke saath baithe hain..

Sunday, May 22, 2016

Dard 2

एक दर्द बस यूँही सीने से लगाए बैठे हैं.. 
एक तस्वीर यूँही सजाए बैठे हैं... 
हैं करीब वो और ज़िन्दगी हसीं बहुत..
फिर भी नजाने क्यों यह ख्याल लिए बैठे हैं... 
चंद अल्फाज़ निकले इस जुबां से.. 
बस इसलिए दर्द का दामन पकडे बैठे हैं... 
एक दर्द बस यूँही सीने से लगाए बैठे हैं... 


Ek dard bus yunhi seene se lagaye baithe hain..
Ek tasveer yunhi sajaye baithe hain...

Hain kareeb wo aur zindagi haseen bahut...

Fir bhi na jane kyun yeh khayal liye baithe hain.. 
Chund alfaaz nikle is jubaan se.. 
Bus isliye dard ka daaman pakde baithe hain...
Ek dard bus yunhi seene se lagaye baithe hain...

Saturday, May 21, 2016

Dard

ज़िन्दगी कितनी ही खुशहाल क्यों ना हो..
मज़्ज़ा तो दर्द ही देता है... 
दिन गुज़रते हैं ख़ुशी से.. 
रातें नशीली तो दर्द से ही होती हैं... 
हसने से लगती है ज़िन्दगी हलकी..
जज़्बातों का वजन तो दर्द ही एहसास कराता है... 
बातें ख़ुशी ख़ुशी हवाओं में उड़ती हैं.. 
लिखने को शब्द तो दर्द ही दे पाता है... 
ज़िन्दगी कितनी ही खुशहाल क्यों ना हो..
मज़्ज़ा तो दर्द ही देता है... 

Zindagi kitni hi khushal kyun na ho..
Mazza to dard hi deta hai...
Din guzarte hain khushi se..
Raaten nasheeli to dard se hi hoti hain...
Husne se lagti hai zindagi halki..
Jazbaaton ka wajan to dard hi ehsaas krata hai...
Baaten khushi khushi hawaon mein udti hai..
Likhne ko shabd to dard hi de pata hai... 
Zindagi kitni hi khushal kyun na ho..
Mazza to dard hi deta hai...

Thursday, February 11, 2016

वक़्त

वक़्त, नाजाने कितने ही जाने अंजाने सवालों के जवाब छुपाये बैठे हो तुम...
कुछ सवाल तो हम भी भूले बैठे थे, नाजाने क्यों वो सवाल याद दिला जाते हो तुम।
मुस्कुराते हुए बैठे थे हम, नाजाने कहाँ से आँखों के किनारे वो एक आंसू ले आते हो तुम...
वक़्त, नजाने कितने ही सवालों के जवाब छुपाये बैठे हो तुम।।।


Waqt, najane kitne hi jane anjane sawalon ke jawab chupaye baithe ho tum...
Kuch sawal to hum bhi bhule baithe the, najane kyun wo sawal yaad dila jate ho tum...
Muskurata huye baithe the hum na jane khan se aankhon ke kinare wo ek aansu le aate ho tum..
Waqt, najane kitne hi sawalon ke jawab chupaye baithe ho tum!!!